Entirely Made of Flaws

“You are made entirely of flaws and that makes you beautiful. Your ‘flaws’ are simply part of you, they make you unique and they make you beautiful. don’t ever allow someone the power to make you feel weak because they might not like one of your qualities.” – Becca Martin, Thought Catalog

I know many of us do have a difficult time to really accept the flaw(s); flaws that are part of you. I can name a few things of mine that I had a hard time confronting. Normally, I would just brush it aside and sweep them under the rug as if they were specks of dust. But then again, you can’t really avoid it for a long time unless you come to accept them. Now, I am usually an optimistic person and I tell this to people that I know that it is okay to accept them. Cry it out or vent it out to make all things better. And if someone doesn’t like the way you are or how you address yourself, then it is their loss for not knowing you well enough to truly accept that.

I do know that we are entirely made of flaws and that’s the beauty part of being a human being. There is no such thing as a perfect human being, that if you’re wholly narcissistic. If it wasn’t for flaws, people would probably be boring with a boring personality. And living on earth would be the most boring place. I do admit I do not like some of my own flaws and yes, I struggled with them every single day. I don’t know if I can remember a day where I don’t think about my own flaws. It does pop up in your mind like a judgemental blob of yourself, bickering at you the things you should take or do.

One of my flaws is that I don’t stand up for myself often as I should. Especially with my age, I should be able to. However, I overanalyzed myself with things in front of me and come up with many scenarios before I can come up to do it. It does ticks me off when I know I should accept the outcomes and sometimes, I don’t want to accept it. I know I need to accept the truth and move on. I can’t go around, trying to find a better way to soften the blow or avoid from confronting the obstacles in front of me. I just need to face it and I do acknowledge that. I need to build that self-confidence back and try to be a better woman for me and myself only. Building self-confidence is a hard task for me to do. Being self-confidence is also to learn how to love me.

Learning to love myself, I am still stuck in that phase and yet, I tell people that they need some me time and self-care. I do self-care a lot but not the loving myself. I know how to take care of myself even though my life is a little messy sometimes. And loving myself is not easy. I focus on other people’s need and I help people. When it comes to myself, I motivate myself to do things then half-way there, I lost my motivation until they tell me to get on to it. This is something that is long-term for me and I do take my time. I know I am a very patient person so, I am in no rush.

I know a lot of us to like to fix certain things about ourselves. Sometimes, we just need to learn how to accept ourselves and our own flaws. Because we are entirely made of flaws, after all. There is no wrong or right thing about our flaws. Flaws are who we are. Without them, we couldn’t understand what is good and what is bad.

Another thing is that it will take some time to mend things slowly.

 

 

 

San Diego Calling

IMG_0054San Diego is my third home. San Fransisco is my second.

It’s literally only a couple hours away from my home. I go to the beaches a lot more there compared to my hometown. I just love it.  The vibes, the community, and the diverse cultures they have there. It’s like LA but smaller.

I’ve always wanted to try different places every I go and I like to try new things as well. I am a somewhat picky eater but I try to be open-minded about it. I still can’t eat fig just yet. It may look appealing to me but the inside doesn’t appeal so well for me.

So anyways. I stayed with my friend who is currently attending at UCSD for three days. In three days, we’ve gone to the beaches. She’s a sunset chaser and would grab any opportunity to find a good place to take pictures of the incredible sun slash beach. FYI, it was cold af as well.

On Saturday, my friend picked me up and we had pho before we left my hometown. She was coming down with sniffles. I took her to one of my favorite pho places when I grew up and this is when my sister took me there with the family. Ever since it was champ still. I love their Thai drink. It is an affordable place too. We caught up a bit and we were on our way!

It was bad timing since it’s Saturday and a lot of people are going out of town during President’s Day weekend. We decided to cut the traffic by exiting in Oceanside and catch the sunset, of course. It was also perfect timing because I updated my phone and it comes with an awesome camera lens. I was amazed by how this phone takes good photos. It was cold! It was nice to get out of the car and stretch our bodies but like damn, it’s cold! We were there for a while until my friend found a lost wallet. She wanted to give the wallet back, so we went to the address on his driver’s license, I mean, what would you do if you find someone’s wallet somewhere at the beach? If you were me, I would’ve left it. If you were my friend, she felt that if I were that person, that person would want it back. I was pretty proud of her. So, she returned the wallet and we were on the way to her place. We made a plan with our former roommate/friend to meet up at a bar.

Once we got there, we got ready and we picked her up on the way. I was so excited because I have not seen her for a while and it was a good vibe as well. We caught up while we got there. We went to a bar called Craft & Commerce, We found out that it was crowded and we were in the process of finding a different bar when we realized there is a hidden bar (speakeasy) inside the bar. A bar within a bar. So cool, right? We were going to walk out of the bar to find a bar called False Idol and it was like right in front of us. We decided to wait. While we waited, we ordered drinks from Craft & Commerce and the spot was tight though.  We

IMG_0129On Sunday, it was nice, I slept in a little but still early. My friend got up early. Today was gonna be mellow. We were gonna get tacos at Tacos El Gordo.  I haven’t had it for so long, it tasted so good. Then she showed me around Coronado Island in the car. We decided to stop by at a cute coffee shop with a flower shop. We stayed a couple of hours and then. We went back to her area to get some dessert then chilled.

Ah! Now, I remember. We went to this really cool bar and it comes with reservation. I knew she was tired but it was worth it! Even the drinks and the food itself as well.

I don’t really remember the next day when she dropped me off home. But I remembered that I fell on that day when we went down the beach to explore the low tides. We also saw the double rainbow on the drive back to LA. But that’s the remaining of my San Diego Trip!

I lagged so much on this post. I know.

 

26 Things I’ve Learned About Life as a 26 Years Old

Sorry for the lack of writing posts for the last few Mondays. I have to put it on pause and focus on what I needed to do. So many things happened but not a whole lot. I wrote this post on the first day of August, my birthday month and I will continue writing until the day before I turn 27. Can you believe it? Time certainly went by fast. As 26 years old, I feel like I didn’t do much to help or improve myself, you know? I honestly felt that nothing has changed; nothing too major about myself except dying my hair. I mean, I got a new job that I’ve grown to love working, I moved back home to help my family, my sister is having a baby boy THIS month, and etc. On top of that, I have a lot of things in my mind lately. Not necessary in a bad way, but at least I am constantly thinking of something. I thought it would interesting to do this post because I do want to see if I actually did learn something as being a 26 years old gal. So, why not?

  1. Getting the hang of your finances. This year has been the hardest for me. I was struggling with finance. Money is always been a huge, huge factor in my life ever since I started working. I know this could relate to anyone. I know that I will continue to struggle with it, but in the end, I’ll know that I will eventually figure out to manage my finances better.
  2. Friends come and go, and that’s okay. I don’t have a lot of friends and that’s okay with me. I have friends who care and will always have my back if anything.
  3. Always be optimistic about everything. There’s nothing wrong with being positive in any bad situation. Every time I’m in a difficult situation, I’ve always kept my head up high and know that in the end, everything will be alright.
  4. Own your mistakes. it’s not the cowardness. If you own up your mistake, you “woman” up. If another person doesn’t recognize that you’re literally owning up your shiet, they’re too caught up with their own lies and in denial. Every time I made a mistake, I always apologize for my own mistakes. It literally makes myself feel better the fact that I own up my own shiet, it’s like a brick off my shoulders.
  5. Never take your family for granted. I cherished every moment with them and I’ve always made sure that I’ll be available for them as much as I can.
  6. Don’t revolve your life with social media. I stopped using Facebook (deactivated), and it was a life-changing moment for me at least. I actually look what is in front of me and be in the present of what is going on in front of me. I may be going back to Facebook eventually but I cannot predict when though.
  7. Make things happen, don’t just sit around and think about it. If there’s something that you want to do, do it! Don’t wait until someone tells you to do so. BUT, do it on your own terms. img_3924.jpg
  8. Less is more. I can honestly tell you that I feel I have a lot of things in my room. I am slowly trying to get rid of things that I don’t need. I can donate or throw it away. You’ll feel better when everything is in place. I’ll be more focused once I can get rid of things off my plate.
  9. Make your bed every day. Seriously, yes I’ve slacked off making my bed but once you do it every morning after using the bathroom or having breakfast. You can check off one task first thing in the morning and you feel accomplished.
  10. Be honest with yourself and everyone. Be kind to yourself and don’t force yourself to make someone happy. You should make yourself happy and less stressful if you tell the truth. I find that telling the truth is liberating and you should try it.
  11. Don’t be so hard on yourself. Take it easy. Pace yourself and everything will be alright. When things aren’t looking up, I put myself down so many times yet, I try to stay positive. It’s okay, give yourself some TLC
  12. Save your money! Trust me, you’ll thank yourself in the future.
  13. Treat yourself every now and then. Get some new clothes, shoes. Maybe throw in some rings and earrings as well.
  14. Don’t compare yourself to others. You are worth it.
  15. Laughter is the best medicine. Loosen up a little bit. Don’t be serious about everything. You have a long life ahead of you.
  16. It’s okay to have carbs. You can still be healthy but sometimes, you need carbs in your life. I know I do.
  17. Learn from the past and then let it go. You have to make the mistakes yourself in order to learn from them. Once you figured out your mistake, let it go. You don’t need to focus on the past when you’re in the present. You miss all the fun and what is in front of you.
  18. Quality trumps quantity. Always 100%.
  19. Be kind to others. Say hello, thank you, you’re welcome. Be polite.
  20. It’s okay if you go to bed before 10pm. We had a long day and sleeping in early is the best feeling. THE best.
  21. Take a picture. And treasure that day you took a picture.
  22. Do not hold grudges. You’ll feel better once you let it go and you do not need that grudges at all! I’ve learned the hard way.
  23. Say no like you mean it. They will understand. I hate the thought of saying no but when you don’t want to do it or feel uncomfortable. Just say no.
  24. Skincare. Try a good skincare to take care of your skin. I’m trying new things and looking for a right product for my skin. I’m in a hunt for good skincare if y’all know a good one.
  25. Go out on a date with your partner. Sometimes, we will try new things to keep us active such as a batting cage. That was fun. I’m always looking forward to trying new things with my boyfriend. Or even better, try new food places!
  26. Create things as you go. I always find a way to keep my creativity growing. I would make time for my self-creativity to come out. I even try calligraphy and I’m struggling with it but it’s kinda pretty awesome that I am learning calligraphy.

It was hard coming up with 26 things that I’ve learned so far. Be yourself and have fun. You’re still growing and you’ll never stop learning new things. Anywoo, catch a glimpse of Haya later :).

Imperfection For Perfect

Anniversary Date: July 9, 2016

To be honest, I feel like I knew him longer than just 2 to 3 years. He’s like my best friend in a way. We annoy the hell out of each other but still give love as well. We have ups and downs. But that is a normal standard for most couples.

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I have to say, I learned a lot from our relationship. There were a lot of moments where we don’t get each other clearly and get heated up, and there were a lot of moments of laughter, serious conversation, and just being corny on complimenting each other. For that, I am grateful to have him as part of my life. I’m grateful for the support system we have together and I know we have a lot of things to learn; from each other and from ourselves as well. There are times where I wouldn’t communicate and refuse to talk about it until the storm passed. I appreciated the fact that he still stands by my side when I didn’t want to talk about it at that moment

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I love the fact that we keep it real; show our ugliness and our vulnerability. The fact that we have to learn how to cope and how to show support for one another. This shows me like he can put up with my problems even though it was none of his businesses.

Like I said, I feel like I knew him longer. I am looking forward to our ups and downs. Plus many other things we have in front of each other and ourselves. I admit that we’re aren’t perfect but we’re both imperfect for each other (corny, right?). Relationships aren’t easy, I can tell you that. Just remember, always communicate and give support no matter what the situation is. AND appreciate one another as well. Anywoo, catch a glimpse of Haya 🙂

 

How To Save Money on Food

HOW? How? Hooooooowwwwwww?

Internally fighting off all the possible fast food places popping up in my head.

It’s really simple. So simple. Yes, it is THAT simple.

You can-NOT depend on Mcdonald (a large french fries and a happy meal of 4 pieces chicken nuggets with two sweet ‘n’ sour sauce) forever. I know it’s hard and it’s hard for me too! Believe me or I wouldn’t even post this “How to save money on food.” Most of the millennial generation grew up eating mickey-d’s, burger king, Church chicken (better than Popeyes) or Chinese food because you know, it is cheap and it is freaking delicious for most of us. I ain’t gonna lie. My parents used to drive to mickey-d’s and ordered a dozen of cheeseburgers because it’s cheap and they didn’t have to cook (plus my sister kinda persuaded me to convince my parents to get us McDonald’s. I was young, okay! my sister was a bad influence at that time, using my ‘baby begging face’ to convince them). Nowadays, we’re becoming more conscious of what we eat.

Now that I am 26. I noticed myself eating more organic food such as non-preservatives, non-processed food, and more vegetables. I do still eat some fast food once in a while but most of the time, avoiding them if I want to maintain a healthy life for myself. I started cooking more at home and who doesn’t love the homemade food at home?! My roommates’ homemade food is always the bomb and better than at restaurants, cause like they put their heart and soul into making this delicious homemade shieeet.

Number 1: Limit the wants and focus on the needs.

We all have cravings, especially the wants whenever you go to the grocery store or food place. Let’s say you have 25 dollars. That’s enough to get yourself a combo at a panda express with a medium drink, maybe an extra side as well. Then again, that’s 25 dollars in one day go to waste. Be rational. You can literally use up 25 dollars for just a week.

Number 2: Get food items that can last you for a while or food plan.

What I mean like get food that you know you would eat it every day or at least every other day. Oh, psst. Leftover is totally OK. Normally, I would go to the store and start thinking okay, If I want to save money for the week or at least two weeks, I make lists. For instance, I love breakfast and I always make sure that I get the most of my morning time. I would get bagels, eggs, greek yogurt, and little bits to incorporate with other things. You see where I’m going along with this? You making a food plan for a week is awesome, which is another thing I should do every time. Visualize your food plan and don’t waste it. This is where the leftover comes in. I know some of you would be like, ew. Who will eat the leftovers? Uh, this girl over here! I don’t mind as long it looks appetizing. If it’s old or you know you’re not gonna eat it after having it once, offer to your roommates or family members BEFORE you threw it out. They’ll be grateful and you’ll be grateful as well.

Number 3: What’s for dinner?

Tired of seeing your fridge all piled up with food that is for breakfast or lunch or even leftovers? Don’t even try to stock up in the fridge. I’ve seen it and annoyed the heck of me and I know I’m not the only one. My suggestion is to get ingredients that you know you will use it on the same night to make your dinner. So that way, you don’t have to stuff it in back in the fridge until tomorrow or even a couple of days. Use it up in one day so that you’re not wasting the ingredients.

Number 4: Pitching in!

Another way to save money on food is pitching in with your roommates, friends or family members in buying ingredients. If y’all gonna get coffee creamer or milk, pitch in with someone who also drinks coffee! If y’all doing taco night, pitch in with whoever will be eating tacos with you. Even with drinks! Pitching in is the best way to save your money. The last time I pitched in for taco night, I only have to pay less than 10 dollars. That’s all included with meats and sides (insert the gasp face emoji). I know, right?! So incredible to save that much! This is why I like pitching in.

Number 5: Don’t be afraid to splurge a little.

There are days where you want to buy food you wanted but you know you come into the store with a sole purpose. If there is an item that you want to try to see if it is good, GO FOR IT. Nothing’s wrong with trying different things. I know I do. It is okay to go a little over your budget but control yourself. You don’t want to end up with a negative in your bank account. I know this blog post was supposed to be on how to save money on food, so try to stay on track on what you’re planning to do with food shopping and staying on your budget.

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I hope these numbers of list helps you and the next time you go to a grocery store, you have that clear mindset on how you will save money 🙂 Any questions or comments, I’ll be more to oblige to help you out! Catch a glimpse of Haya later.

 

Binge Much?

Is it just me that the days are getting longer yet the hours are quicker?

Maybe…maybe not. But I don’t know about you, I’ve been bingeing so much lately and it’s a good thing for me. Since it is summer season and there are a lot of things that I am looking forward to 🙂 I am excited! Happy Monday to you all!

Anywoo! We all get sucked into the world of Netflix, Hulu or even Amazon Prime, I’m sure and it is so hard to not binge when it is so close to bedtime. You find yourself looking at the time in the dark and shook yourself that it was already 3am. You curse yourself and force yourself to sleep because you have work in the morning. That’s pretty much me sometimes. When I find a show that I really like, like really likes the show so much that I binge so hard. I tell myself daily that I need to start organizing my shiet before watching my show.

A few days ago, I just finished watching a TV show called “Lucifer” on Hulu and man, it is good. I personally like to watch fantasy slash crime type of shows because it makes everything so interesting. I finished that show less than 3 weeks. I KNOW. I know. You’re thinking “Omg, HAYA.” or “Damn girl, you have no life when it comes to bingeing.” I know, I couldn’t agree with you more. It’s a bad habit and I’m pretty sure y’all do that too! Hopefully, Netflix will add season 4 for Lucifer” since the show itself got canceled on FOX channel. (fingers crossed). Now, I’m catching up with “Wynonna Earp” on Netflix season 2. I should stop, don’t I? (telling myself to start prioritizing again).

There’s nothing wrong with watching Netflix or Hulu and chill on your bed. I mean honestly, that’s how I do #Hayaflop right there. However, it’s taking away your priorities. It’s a distraction if you have your show on in front of you. I’ve been telling myself not to do that and you ended by telling yourself 5 more minutes with the show or at least the episode ends. But then again, there’s nothing wrong with that.

Not to worry, next week Monday’s post will be better 🙂 Thank you for taking your time of the day and I appreciate you so much! Catch a glimpse of Haya later.

 

How to Motivate Yourself to Clean Up Your Room

For the past few days (okay, I lied.) For the past week, I’ve procrastinated myself from cleaning up my room. Why? I just recently moved in from upstairs apartment to one-floor apartment with my parents. Let me tell you, it is H-A-R-D. I know myself that I should’ve cleaned up and gone through stuff to rid more things to save some space, but I didn’t. I tell myself every morning when I wake up and see all my stuff still on the floor, “Alright, Haya. You’ll need to figure where that stuff goes and start clearing the space on the floor.” I agonized myself every time when it comes to cleaning. Don’t get me wrong, I like to clean and like to be organized. The thoughts having my room minimized and look at these, it’s definitely not gonna be fast to get rid of things. And it’s the “watching tv while cleaning”‘s fault.

I’ve noticed that is happening with my parents. They had so many things they still keep from the old previous house we used to live in and all those things are in the garage. I know my dad isn’t the problem but mainly my mom. My sister and I were talking about this the other day and we definitely don’t want our parents to appear on a tv show called “Hoarders”.

On a serious note, It took me about 4 days and a half, I think. I felt I had so much stuff but by the end of the 4 days, it was mainly useless papers and books. I was so happy that I bought several cubby storage bins. And I was trying to make this room mine. I added few paintings that I did overtime up on the walls as well.

I still feel like I have too much stuff. Once in a while, I’ll see what I can get rid of and try to influence my parents into doing that. They need to!

So how do you motivate yourself into cleaning your room? Make a list. A list of what you need to do and what you want to do in cleaning. Divide that into possibly a day or for the weekend if you have no plans to go out anytime. Manage your time wisely. Make sure in between cleaning, you take your coffee/tea fix break, lunch break, and snack break. No distractions; avoid turning on your tv if you have one in your room. It. Will. Distracts. You. From. Cleaning. . .No phone unless you’re using your phone for Spotify or Pandora Music. Music Only! Imagine your layout of the room. Measure the size of your room, figure out where your things will go and think if it will fit. Minimize the ‘want’. Ask yourself this before you put things in the room, “Do I need this? Will I use it in the future? Will it benefits me?” So you don’t feel like you’re becoming like a hoarder and you don’t want to add more clutter in your room. Get a big trash bag. You’ll need it when it comes to shredding papers, plastic things, and expired products. Organize your shiet. Make a separate pile for you to see what to keep and what not to keep. It helps A LOT. I organized mails and I had a lot of mails in what not to keep pile.

I hope these tips help! It does for me and it is how I do it when it comes to cleaning my room. If you want to keep your room clean, start your day by cleaning up your bed. From there, you’ll have the motivation to do other things in the room :). Catch a glimpse of Haya later.