Entirely Made of Flaws

“You are made entirely of flaws and that makes you beautiful. Your ‘flaws’ are simply part of you, they make you unique and they make you beautiful. don’t ever allow someone the power to make you feel weak because they might not like one of your qualities.” – Becca Martin, Thought Catalog

I know many of us do have a difficult time to really accept the flaw(s); flaws that are part of you. I can name a few things of mine that I had a hard time confronting. Normally, I would just brush it aside and sweep them under the rug as if they were specks of dust. But then again, you can’t really avoid it for a long time unless you come to accept them. Now, I am usually an optimistic person and I tell this to people that I know that it is okay to accept them. Cry it out or vent it out to make all things better. And if someone doesn’t like the way you are or how you address yourself, then it is their loss for not knowing you well enough to truly accept that.

I do know that we are entirely made of flaws and that’s the beauty part of being a human being. There is no such thing as a perfect human being, that if you’re wholly narcissistic. If it wasn’t for flaws, people would probably be boring with a boring personality. And living on earth would be the most boring place. I do admit I do not like some of my own flaws and yes, I struggled with them every single day. I don’t know if I can remember a day where I don’t think about my own flaws. It does pop up in your mind like a judgemental blob of yourself, bickering at you the things you should take or do.

One of my flaws is that I don’t stand up for myself often as I should. Especially with my age, I should be able to. However, I overanalyzed myself with things in front of me and come up with many scenarios before I can come up to do it. It does ticks me off when I know I should accept the outcomes and sometimes, I don’t want to accept it. I know I need to accept the truth and move on. I can’t go around, trying to find a better way to soften the blow or avoid from confronting the obstacles in front of me. I just need to face it and I do acknowledge that. I need to build that self-confidence back and try to be a better woman for me and myself only. Building self-confidence is a hard task for me to do. Being self-confidence is also to learn how to love me.

Learning to love myself, I am still stuck in that phase and yet, I tell people that they need some me time and self-care. I do self-care a lot but not the loving myself. I know how to take care of myself even though my life is a little messy sometimes. And loving myself is not easy. I focus on other people’s need and I help people. When it comes to myself, I motivate myself to do things then half-way there, I lost my motivation until they tell me to get on to it. This is something that is long-term for me and I do take my time. I know I am a very patient person so, I am in no rush.

I know a lot of us to like to fix certain things about ourselves. Sometimes, we just need to learn how to accept ourselves and our own flaws. Because we are entirely made of flaws, after all. There is no wrong or right thing about our flaws. Flaws are who we are. Without them, we couldn’t understand what is good and what is bad.

Another thing is that it will take some time to mend things slowly.