Sitting here at the dining table with a cup of coffee and my laptop in front of me,
I can’t help myself looking outside of the patio. The sun is out and it looks like it will be a beautiful day. The tree is swaying along with the winds. I look to my left and see this. On the wall hung my oil painting. I remember I painted this around 2014, I believe. At that time, I would sketch a few in my sketchbook but not a whole lot. I was also a huge fan of Audrey Kawasaki, she is AH-mazing. If you don’t know who she is, check out her website: https://www.audkawa.com/. Kawasaki painted on wood and her brush works are impeccable. To me, at least is beautifully done. With her, I found other artists that are similar.
I told myself that I was going to do some series of sketches based on myself and my experiences, but a version of me with a different look. Like I was going through a lot of inner struggles with myself and everyone else. I closed
one part of myself that I didn’t want anyone to know and mostly, I kept it to myself. I didn’t really trust anyone but myself and it’s not easy, bottling everything I have inside. It’s like waiting for a volcano to erupt anytime soon.
I do miss painting, especially oil painting. What got me into oil painting was my life drawing teacher in community college. It is where you draw with chalk charcoals and not only that, you draw a live nude model. With the life drawing, I tried to instill that with oil painting. It is not realistic as it gets, BUT I’m getting there…Somewhat, haha.
When you find something that you’re truly passionate about, stay with it and continue. Don’t give up. If you cannot find the time to do what you love to do, do find the time for it. Even though, I haven’t paint for a while now. I still use my creative skill through work and what I can do with my hands. I just pick up a pen or pencil and sketch whatever paper I can find on my own time. A doodle there and here. I’m a hypocrite myself because I usually will tell my friends that I will get back to painting and til then, I didn’t follow through. I need to start telling myself that no more #hayaflop. I need to start to revitalize my passion and find my motivation in continuing. So, don’t you give up on you! Go seize the day! Start with a cup of coffee or tea or whatever drink that gives you a wake-up boost. Catch a glimpse of Haya later.